Ramblings (this week)

Its been almost two whole weeks and I haven't gotten off the euphoria that Adsense verified the blog. As I continue to bask in the joy of that feat I must allow the muse inside of me to summon my head and hands to write something today. So allow me to ask, how has the week and the one before been for y’ll?? … As I write this post today I have to forewarn; I do not possess the proper brain to hand coordination every prolific writer has so you will excuse the fact that today's post is rather going to be full of ramblings from the last couple of days leading to this moment. Guess what guys! Remember this post from just 5 months ago the-woes-of-working-out-and-keeping-bod-tight , I have to confess that it didn't take too long because your girl is reformed and has signed up for a gym membership YAY.

I have and will always have insecurities about my body, I think at this point all my close friends are tired of me complaining about one part of my body or the other. Today Dee said, "in all the time I have known you, you complain about your body more than anything else". No one wants to be saddled with my kind of person so I decided after a couple of sessions with my OG and everything coach Grace Essien, enough about complaining of how much you hate the way your butt sticks out or the way your arms look in a sleeveless top just get with the program and see what happens. Fam its been hard, the motivation for a summer body goal is just about what is keeping me going.

After the first day, I refused to leave my bed because I feared the pain would kill me. A day after, I had a bad fall because I wore tall heels, as usual, forgetting that I hadn't gotten over the pains in my lower body; I must have sprained both my ankles at the same time and acquired a nasty bruise on my shin that day and that was only the proverbial icing on the cake. The injuries from my fall made the first week of going to the gym after work hell. My fitness instructor did not even help any, he pushed and pushed until I almost cried. Every time a routine seemed harder than usual or it felt like my lungs will give out, at the back of my mind I pictured my dream body and I did all the routines I was instructed to. Its the second week and I haven't given up yet so it has got to count for something yeah. The schedule has been the next most challenging thing because now I even have less time to take a breather but we pushing and we going strong. When I remember how psyched my mum is about me wanting to lose some weight I try to finish up work early to catch the bus and be ready to run on the treadmill at 6pm.  More often than not remember the quote about the Birkin and Michael Kors bag and I give myself a mental part on the head because I am going to be Birkin in a short time. 

Now that working out has taken a chunk of my time it is hard to even remember my birthday that's in a week. This year's birthday has me thinking about how life can change in a short time. Last year around this time I must have talked my OG’s ear off a million times, about how scared I was because I didn't know the next step to take in life. This year I have so much to be thankful including friends who have remained a constant in the midst of change. I am doubtful and still full of fears for the coming years but I rest, assured that I have people who will always look out for me and steer me in the right direction. No more waterworks, honestly there are a thousand and one things I need to do in the next few weeks. Like i said earlier, today I am rambling and celebrating small wins and wonderful friendships and encouraging myself to keep up with the new healthy lifestyle.