HAPPY ** BIRTHDAY ** QUEEN

I have surprised myself again this year and have created a post for today and boy does it feel nice. Even though this last week has been trying, and I have probably lost my cool a thousand times every day, and my first appraisal was shitty and I have lost every sense of excitement, and I am lowkey tired of saying' God when I knew I had to make something out of today. I wrote a nasty email the other day at work, letting out the steam, gas, and fury I had felt for the past 3 weeks because my personal emotions and struggles had clouded my mind but introspected for a bit a while later, deleted the whole email, and went to type what would have been ideal and has a tweep said last week what the holy spirit would have wanted me to type. Anyone who ever said this thing called 'adulting' is easy, cracked the greatest joke. The exceptional stress of living your life and still getting pressure from other parts of said life is the reason why your mind can get fickle enough to give up on you. One thing I did more in the week leading to today was obsessing over how I am getting too old and still not doing enough, totally forgetting to be grateful for how far I have come in such a short time. I just like every other person does this and take today's post as a note to self to be grateful instead of soulful.

I had a draft of this post from sometime in July where it read ' This year's birthday shouldn't be a big event like the last one Sue made; buying a cake and dragging me to get my make up done and done a red sultry dress just to have a good time. In retrospect, it was a beautiful day but I'd rather have a quiet dinner and a private movie screening this year' It is safe to announce again that this year Man planned but God disposed because if all goes well today, I would be having 9 ladies, clad in beautiful clothes, enjoying life, eating good food and catching up on the top floor of the restaurant of an expensive hotel. Talk about quiet dinner and movie screening for 2. In my defense, my cousin said my life was getting a bit too drab and Sue seconded the motion. I even pulled up the dinner plan and I know even though it won't be until later today that with everything I have put out for to-do's we will have fun. I might even add 'small event planner' to my bio if I pull this off. 

Another year and a half of my dreams are still dreams, the love of my life is still probably far off in some 1st world country or maybe he lives next door, my aspirations still seem a bit too bold and audacious for where I am coming from, my family growth is still my biggest prayer request but one ever-constant person who has kept me afloat and sane is God. I have checked the box again this year for everything I left in his hands; he held tight and never let go.

Just like last year, I am not chucking this year's successes to freaking fate or sarcastic serendipity because if you ask me, I do not believe in any of it. I am well aware that a lot of hard work has paved a better way and for this I am happy.

This new year scares the shit out of me because believe it or not the older you get the more tests you get; Thankful that we are not tested more than we can bear at least. I don't know what I will become, what I am going to do or where I will end up by this time next year but I believe in the wholesome plan of God for my life. In the end, I'll be happy, not confused, and not stressed just happy and finding my zen every day. 

Done memorizing the creed for the new year - The assignment is minimum efforts, maximum enjoyment Today, Tomorrow, and the day after that... Boujielations 10 vs 5

To Sue just because I am practicing my French for when I finally honeymoon in Marseille- Tu es la lumière de ma vie "You are the light of my life"

To my Women - you are an extension of God's beautiful grace to me. 

To my Family - your support has been immense and I love every single one of you.

To Everyone - I am constantly in awe of how much people come to accept and love me, I must be doing something right because this love is a lot lot.

To My Future Husband - I might have caught the marriage fever and I'm hoping to settle down and start our small family soon.

Happy birthday Dam Dam but first of all THANK YOU, GOD

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